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I was thinking about us in my History class today, and my teacher caught me distracted. I had to write imposition.

I want to tell you what I had been thinking about. The only difference is that this time, I felt I should write to you. So that you could understand me better.

Imagine:
Pa, I want the best for you. I want you to make me proud. And I know you can. But I wonder why you are not trying enough.

If you really work hard, I am sure you can get the promotion in your office. But I somehow feel you are not trying, and that disappoints me.

You get angry with me for expecting anything from you. Why? Don't you understand that I am your daughter, and I want my father to succeed always?

Did you know how happy I was, when they put a garland over your neck and clapped in that meeting, and I keep looking at that photo and wonder why you are no longer getting garlands.

Yes, it upsets me pa, especially when I see Meetu's father's photo in the last page of the newspaper, and Rinky's father who drops her in the new car every day at school.

I don't know how, but I know if you get more garlands, you can buy a car. And all of us can go in a car, and my heart will swell with pride, when I tell my friends that my pa has got the latest car.

Do you know how it feels, when Meetu talks about her father's latest pictures and Rinky about her father's car, and meetings. How I wish you understand!

My wishes are small. And my hopes are pinned on you. I believe in your ability to be featured in the papers and win accolades.

Ma,
You know how much I love you right? I would do anything for you    if you want me to be home at 5.00 for homework, I would certainly do that, just to please you.

But, don't you think I can expect the same from you? Ajay's mother makes pizzas at home. I have asked you so many times, but you still don't know.

Yes, you do make good curd rice, and spicy paratas, but am I wrong in expecting pizzas from you? When Ajay shares his pizzas with everyone in the lunch break, I have no pizzas to give. Won't I also feel like bragging about your pizzas?

And I asked you to go to the place that Rohan's mother goes, so that you could also become as thin as her. You laughed it away. This Annual day, when you and pa come I wanted to show my friends how beautiful my ma is. How I wish you would go to that place!

Ma, Pa,

When I thought of all this, it frightened me. It is so unlike of me to think all this. Because I love you both too much to be bothered about garlands and pizza making skills.

But..I can't help but wonder.Why is it that, I should always stand first in class? Why should I excel in math, and get into an American university when I grow up? Why should I go to music, dance and crafts class every day and not just play with friends? Why should I talk good English in front of our relatives?

I know, it makes you proud. But can I be me? Won't you still love me without expecting me to do the things that "you" like? The way I love you    unconditionally?

Ever loving yours
Sneha
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