Call me Madam X. Or should I say Madam Ex? Ex wife, ex employee. I`m forty-one years old - certainly not a spring chicken - and considered obsolete in these days when technology outdates itself every couple of years.
For reasons I won`t discuss here - I have no choice but to be financially independent henceforth. It obviously isn`t going to be a bed of roses. When life throws a spanner in your works at this age, you need to think on your feet - and hold onto what you have.
How do I manage? I take one day at a time - and give it all I can.
A penny saved is a penny earned - so I try to earn all the Pennies, Paise and Rupees I can - by saving them. My breakfast consists of a glass of milk and a banana. I`ve cut the sugar in the milk too - and saved another couple of pennies. Am I grateful about all these diet fads - my Spartan meals will be put down to a strict diet!
It`s time to peruse my ever-growing list of potential jobs and employees. The secret lies in not being too choosy about the kind of job you want. Like they say - Necessity is the mother of invention - I`m ready to invent and reinvent myself any number of times - if it will help me get a job.
Contrary to what people think - I`m not getting desperate - I believe I`m doing a job - for myself - to keep myself going. I believe that`s what every woman should do in my place. Do your job.
Do your job - it`s like saying Love thy neighbour. The first thing that comes to mind is - why should I? She certainly isn`t worth loving and I`ll be better off not having her for a neighbour. Yes, but won`t life be less unpleasant if tension didn`t escalate each time you stepped out of your door? Similarly - taking up employment that you won`t enjoy is better than sitting around wondering how you`re going to pay your rent the next month. Besides, you can always look for a better job, once you already have a job in hand.
Wallowing in my misery does little to boost my spirit - so I insist in indulging myself a little every day - and let the good times roll. It could be as simple as giggling with a friend, curling up with a good book or watching Amitabh Bachchan on TV. I look forward to these times. They`re healing, and strengthening - and help me to face another day.
I knew I must have done something right somewhere - when I finally managed to land a job. Not a dream job - but a job that helps keep the wolf at bay, and my self-confidence at hand. Maybe I`ll get a better job someday, maybe I won`t - but somehow - it doesn`t seem to worry me now.
I know I got through my bad times by taking one step at a time. I didn`t say no to any prospectus job - I did all I could till a better job came my way. And I gave myself a couple of happy hours every day - it helped make life less hard.